Ah today was like the first day of summer. Hot weather. Sunny. Smell of sunscreen. Beach. Sand. Backyard cook out. Burgers. And of course, memorial parade candy.
Senior skip day is perfectly planned for tomorrow…wait, I’m not skipping…boo.
I can’t wait for more days like these.
Today wasn’t a good day. I don’t know why. I just feel so empty. I’m not satisfied.
It’s hard for me to find joy and happiness. I feel disconnected.
You would think losing a whole bunch of weight would make someone happy…but turns out it isn’t the answer.
When did I start to lose myself?
Today was the last time I’ll be going to clean the gym.
Today was the last day of Teens.
Weird, right?
At least it meant having cake and brownies and Dunkin (in celebration..?)
So many “lasts” are coming fast. Last high school day, last exam (already happened! whooo), last concert, last performance. Last time seeing some friends. Because I know we won’t keep in touch.
I honestly don’t know how to really feel. I don’t think it’s hit me completely yet.
This did not come together as easily as I had envisioned it…but it kind of worked in the end. (meaning you can’t see the mistakes because it’s covered by Kit-Kats and frosting (which also failed, but hopefully refrigerating it will make it better)).
Spring break is over! It’s weird, but I’m ok with it. I’m sick of giving into my cravings and eating all daaay.
But I thank God because I think He’s given me a solid answer on college! whooo. And Going Deeper this year has really changed my view on the life on this earth. It’s quite incredible, actually.
I finished my psychology “homework” today. I just really love taking notes, especially when my handwriting is decent. Note - it’s best after a run when I’m all warm and stuff. I took notes on perception, and for some reason, it just totally fascinated me with how God created us to be. We’re so complicated, and only a Creator could have done it.
And I’m super pumped for college. For being able to manage my time. For expanding my knowledge. For being offered so many opportunites. For meeting new people.